I just want to say a big thank you to Dr Flenley for saving my life and listening to me when I needed someone to listen to me and not push me aside and blame it on my hormones as I wouldn’t be here right now if it wasn’t due to his actions and getting me help.
He’s a credit to Aldridge. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for him listening to me when I seriously needed help.
I’m not saying I’m cured. Because that would be a lie. I’ve had bad days more than good days last week but today is a new week and I have promised myself, I will try and go out.
It’s Monday 22nd of January and I’m feeling okay today so I decided to go see my best friend, it would take me ages to get on public transport but today I’ve done it. I’ve just gotten on the 7A and asked for a day saver. It might be little to you but it’s a big step for me, I would just normally put the money in and they would print it off.
Who would have thought I’d be staying in Aldridge More than 20 minutes, but I’ve done it, one hurdle I’ve overcame!
First time in ages I’ve said this, but I can’t wait for Wetherspoons for some food with my best friend as I’m starving! I didn’t end the post as I forgot, and I was spending some time with my best friend but I’m starting a new day today. Yesterday, I enjoyed it and I had a laugh with her without fake smiling. She knows when I’m having a bad day and a good day. I didn’t feel like, I had to pretend if I wasn’t feeling that great.
Tuesday 23rd January 2018!
This is the thing with mental illness or any illness. One day you can be up and about, the next day you’re feeling dead inside and feeling like death. On these sort of days, I don’t even have the energy to eat a meal because my head is telling me I’m not good enough and I’ll get fatter if I eat. All the time. But my Illness isn’t me and I am fighting 24/7. I’m not a victim of mental illness, I’m a warrior and I will get my life back like it was.
This is just a learning curve. I don’t want sympathy. I just want support without the judgemental comments like: Oh, she’s stayed in bed again or let’s leave her alone she’s having one of those days again.
If someone wants to be on their own and they are showing symptoms of any illness. Please just ask if they are feeling okay and if they need a chat.
It’s going to get tougher before it gets better. I just need to hang on in there. There will be more thunderstorms than rainbows, but I can beat this. I will not be a victim. I am a warrior. You are warriors as well. You might not feel It right now, but you are a warrior and I am so proud of everyone.
Wednesday is a new day and deep down, I can’t wait for it as I’m going to Thomas Project to discuss some plans for spreading awareness with my Nan!
I won’t give up on anyone. I won’t give up on myself. I won’t give up on Aldridge.
Love, Shannon x
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