Dear 30 year old future me.
Our paths won’t cross for ten years but I wanted to write you this letter. You are in your twenties now and you are going through a stressful time at the moment of your life with money problems and life in general. Just so when you are 30, you can look back to this and think damn I can survive! You haven’t found your Mr right yet but you don’t need to worry about that as you will find that special man sometimes in your life. We need to get some things straight me and you. So this is what I want to tell you.
1- Don’t ever doubt yourself! – You do this a lot lately and I just wish you didn’t because you have battled through some heartbreaking stuff in your short life and you are still here and I’m proud of you for fighting for every single breath you are taking because I know how hard that is when you are feeling suicidal.
2- DO NOT BOTTLE THINGS UP SHAN! – You have this forte of bottling all your emotions up then one little thing causes you to feel more pain. Please, when you are feeling this low. Speak to someone on how you are feeling. Don’t battle in silence.
3- Get rid of toxic people in your life. You don’t need it, Shan. You don’t need the upset in your life as you are a growing young lady! You need support and motivation. No drama and no fake friends! You realised who sticks around when you have something bad happen to you and not many people did.
4- You can be whoever you want to be gal. You are still counted as a blogger whether you post every single day or each month. You aren’t failing to blog. You just needed a rest and to think about life. In career wise, I hope you are speaking up about mental health to schools and the public and I want you to one day in your life say “ah I’ve made it!” because I believe in you whether right now you think the world is against you.
5- This bad time will past- I want you to know whether you are in your bed crying or on your sofa blasting music in your headphones to stop the dark intrusive thoughts that the bad times will be replaced with good times soon and you will see your own rainbow with the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow!
6- Don’t neglect your self care- DO SELFCARE EVERY DAY. Self care is an important thing for recovering with a mental illness or physical illness.
7- You will beat mental illness. Don’t ever lose hope. You aren’t a victim of mental illness. You are a warrior. Warriors who are battling their minds every single minute of the day is a scary thing when your mind is telling you untrue things.
8- You will be happy! You will find that special someone and you will have children. I can’t tell you exactly when as I’m 20 years old and I haven’t planned the whole marriage and children situation but when you find that special someone.
Please remember this though.
- You are loved.
- You are beautiful.
- I’m proud of you all.
- You are wanted.
- You are good enough.
- You deserve to be happy.
- Your recovery is going to be so worth it.
- Keep fighting babes, I love ya!
20 year old, Shannon,
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