It’s your girl Shan..
I just wanted to say to you all that..
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You are amazing. Most importantly you are YOU. That’s pretty damn special.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else. God Bless x
Right now, I am having a fight with my mind. I’m in a low mood at the moment and my concentration levels have taken a kick thanks to my fatigue, so I’m trying my best with typing this post up. But that’s my target today to get this post completed.
As you’ve probably seen the What is BPD post. I wanted to do a post about bipolar disorder. I am suspected of having Bipolar disorder but as mental illness diagnoses take time to get, We will wait and see.
It takes a while to get the right diagnosis with any mental illnesses.
What is bipolar disorder?
Bipolar disorder, formerly known as manic depression, is a condition that affects your moods, which can swing from one extreme to another. Bipolar disorder is characterised by extreme mood swings. These can range from extreme highs (mania) to extreme lows (depression). – NHS Website.
Symptoms of bipolar
- No energy at all.
- Feeling worthless.
- No hunger.
- Decreased sex drive.
- Suicidal thoughts.
- Self Harming.
- Sleeping more often or not at all.
- Self doubt.
- Feelings of guilt.
- Feelings of despair.
- Waking up early.
- Feeling self-important.
- Impulsive behaviour.
- Being delusional.
- Having hallucinations.
- Disturbed or illogical thinking.
- Full of great new ideas.
- Having important plans what need to be done asap.
- Feeling very happy, elated or overjoyed.
- Talking very quickly.
If you have bipolar disorder, you may experience episodes of depression more regularly than episodes of mania. Or it might be mania more regularly than depression.
Sometimes in between your high and low episodes you might feel like you are in a stable mood. That doesn’t mean stop your medications. Because please don’t because sometimes your moods will rapidly change and will cause you more damage if you stop and start medication.
Patterns of bipolar disorder
- Rapid cycling – Where a person with bipolar disorder repeatedly swings from a high to low phase quickly without having a “normal” period in between.
- Mixed state – Where a person with bipolar disorder experiences symptoms of depression and mania together; for example, overactivity with a depressed mood.
- If your mood swings last a long time but aren’t severe enough to be classed as bipolar disorder, you may be diagnosed with cyclothymia (a mild form of bipolar disorder).
(From the NHS website)
Causes of bipolar disorder
- Chemical imbalance of the brain.
- Genetics. (Family members might have been diagnosed with bipolar)
- Triggers. (Traumatic Event such as grief, sexual abuse, a relationship what has broken down. It could be caused by physical illness or everyday problems)
Treatment with bipolar disorder
- Medication. (Mood stabilizers, Anti psychotic etc)
- Learning to recognise the triggers of the episodes. (Too much sleep or Insomina)
- Therapies. (CBT)
Living with bipolar disorder
It’s a long-term condition but with good self-care management and medication, you’ll get better. Even if you have relapses. That’s okay to have relapses. (I’ve had about 7 relapses in 11 years, that’s okay!)
- Staying active and a well balanced diet.
- Talking about how you are feeling mentally and physically.
- Avoiding drugs and alcohol.
- Self care.
- Going to your Gps regulary.
- Taking your medication.
Here is some numbers to contact when you are expierencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritians- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
Love, Shannon Diana xx
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