(Disclaimer: I am not pregnant.)
Dear amazing little baby,
We haven’t met yet. I have no idea when we are going to meet. Maybe in a few years. Whatever happens, you’re going to be my little bundle of joy what’s so precious to me. I won’t let anything bad happen to you, I will teach you what love really means.
Because it’s not ending my life by having you.. It’s making my life 1000 times better. You won’t see Nana as she is up in heaven with the ages and great granddad George. You will know everything about her, she’s still the part of you.
When I think of you and the first time I’m gonna hold my precious baby. I get the hopeful feeling what I need to remind me to carry on fighting the demons as one day a little face is going to call me Mummy.
I know you won’t be able to read this letter or maybe you will in 60 years when you’re deciding whether to put me in a nursing home! (Please make it where they put game of thrones on..)
I know the pain is going to be so worth it. I’m not bothered about the pain, I’m only bothered about whether the hospital food is gonna be ace!! 😉
I promise to be the best mom I can be. I promise to listen to every worry and concern you have. I promise I will never let you down. I promise to give you the childhood I never had. I promise I will always say I love you every hour to know that you are loved. I won’t wrap you up in bubble wrap but I will be protective as your grandma was protective over me.
I will teach you everything I know about mental health and illness. If you have a problem please tell me. Don’t suffer in silence like I did. Don’t let anyone treat you like shit. Don’t let anyone tell you that aren’t special because you are.
You are amazing and I can’t wait to see you.
Hopefully in about 20 years, you’ll be a blogger but if not. I’ll let you what you are happy doing and I will support you.
From your future Mummy x
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