How are you?
I’m back with a daily thought log.
It’s Sunday evening…
I’ll be honest, I don’t know how I feel right now. But this morning I went to church. I lost my faith when I was a teenager and when my mental illnesses started to win the battle. At that point of life, I had no hope for my future. I was battling intrusive sucidal thoughts daily. I was battling self harm urges to free the pain a little bit. I was battling substance misuse daily. I was battling everything on my shoulders. Ready to break anytime.
I felt safe while I was at church. I felt like I was loved. I felt like I needed to be there. It didn’t feel like it was a chore to me. It felt lovely. Even if the weather was appaling and it was raining! Maybe I sould buy a coat.. Hmm!
But yeah.. This morning I was scared but I did it. I knew I was going to be okay and I knew that it would help me.
I got back home and all of the sudden I felt the heavyiness back again. My head was shattered for about 4 hours. I even had a little nap. I felt so awful. My daily thoughts are mixed. Sometimes I can feel nothing but all of the sudden I can feel every single emotion what you can do.
There you go. My thought log for Sunday 🙂
I shall love you and leave you ❤
It is perfectly okay to admit when you’re not okay.
Mental illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other peoples health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
God Bless and Love from Shannon Diana xxx
Here is some numbers to contact if you are expierencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritians- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
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