After church this morning.
I lost my faith in God when I was a teenager due to my mental illnesses and the relapses and the pain and no help from any services as I was pushed from pillow and post and the pain I was going through with the demons. I wanted this pain to end. I prayed so hard to God. But nothing was happening. So I gave up on him. I stopped believing in him. At that time, I was so ill. I was mentally ill. But no one helped me. I was just being passed to pillow and post. Being told I was too young for treatments and other excuses. I had so much hatred.
But this last year and this year, I found out that god had a plan for me and he uplifted me with so many ideas and visions. This is why I’m so so so passionate about helping up people in mental health crisis and setting my own charity up and safe haven up in the future.
I felt a spirit in my body one of the nights. I felt the goosebumps when I sang this is amazing grace. I had so many visions and hopes for the future. All of the sudden I felt the strength to carry on, I felt like I could do things that my mind made me think I couldn’t.
My aim is to help people not just help myself. My aim is to help people talk and get the help they need and get the right punishment for the abusers as my abuser just got a slap on the wrist and told not to go near me again.
I am so passionate about helping other people with their mental health. I am so passionate to set my own charity up. I am so passionate about rasing awareness for mental illness and mental health, I want to prevent suicide and self harm.
I am a suicide attempt survivor but that isn’t my future. I am my future.
I’m a sexual abuse survivor, that person won’t bring me down. I was a young vulnerable person when that happened to me, but I can’t ever forget what he sent me and what he asked me it’s planted in my brain and I’m scared when I see him in community still and was so close to my family and friends. He’s ruined the little trust I had. It’s made me stronger and I’m determined to help people with any situation.
If anyone needs any support, please email me and I will pass on the correct support line numbers.
I’m not a trained professional or a councillor but I can listen and listening is the most important skill and that can help people by listening and being non-judgemental towards them.
I shall love you and leave you ❤
It is perfectly okay to admit when you’re not okay.
Mental illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other people’s health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
God Bless and Love from Shannon Diana xxx
Here are some Charites what could help with sexual abuse .
National Association for People Abused in Childhood (NAPAC)-0808 801 0331
The Lucy Faithfull Foundation– 01527 591922
The Survivors Trust-0808 801 0818
Action for children– 020 312 40600
Safe And Sound– 01332 362120
Safeline(Young people helpline)-0808 800 5007
Male Survivor-0808 800 5005
Rape Crisis England & Wales– 0808 802 9999
Here is some numbers to contact if you are expierencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritians- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
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