Hey everyone, you are probably wondering what on earth is she talking about..
So, let’s get started..
I have days where my mind is acting right with me. Those days are amazing. I feel like I can do also my tasks what I plan, but then I have days where I feel like my brain is fighting against me and trying to ruin everything I plan. I get angry about it on my bad days and blame myself.
But it isn’t my fault.
I’m going to drop the taboo word now… That many people has used to stigmatised people.
I’m mentally ill and I’m not ashamed about that. I’ve been mentally ill for years now, yeah, maybe I was scared to talk about it first but now it’s like so what? What are you looking at me weird for? Would you like to take a picture with that love? I still have two arms and 2 legs and 2 eyes!! I’m not a creature. I’m a human being who deserves respect like any person in their life whatever their circumstances are.
My illnesses do not define me.
I was watching a few documentaries Sunday night as I couldn’t sleep as I’m full of flu and my chest doesn’t want to act nice. I was watching about heart transplants. Now this might sound strange but they interest me like mental health documentaries.
I was thinking about my heart and mind. I have the heart of gold. I had a hole in my heart when I was a toddler, I would help anyone out if they had a physical illness or a mental illness. That hasn’t changed since my mental illnesses developed. I had the heart of gold when I was 9 years old, coming home from school then my world turned upside down with my mum death.
I’ve had enough tragedy to last me for life. But I’m not looking for Sympathy. Hell nah, I don’t need sympathy.
I took medication for my heart when I was a toddler, no one said anything. But it’s different to people if I take medication for a mental illness. It’s not acceptable to take medication for your mind but it’s acceptable to take medication for physical illnesses.
You wouldn’t tell someone with a life limiting illness to stop taking their medication and just go out for a walk would you?
So, why would you tell someone who is suffering in silence to just snap out of it.
Let me tell you a little something..
Mental Illnesses are life limiting.
Have you ever tried to get out of bed when you mentally feel like there’s a ten stone on your chest? Have you ever missed daily things you use to do? But now, you find it hard to get out of the front door.
Mental illnesses can kill if it’s not treated or recognised in time!
Yeah, my mind sometimes doesn’t want to play nice. The demons are nasty as anything when I am having a bad day.. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. But I still have a beating heart and I am still human. I still have feelings just like you. I’m just like you if I’m honest. Just because my heart is kind and my mind isn’t kind at times. It doesn’t give you the right to judge me or anyone who is battling any illness, mentally or physically.
I’m Shannon, I’m 20 and I’m mentally ill and I’m a warrior not a freak.
BUT I’M STILL HUMAN!
It is perfectly okay to admit when you’re not okay.
Mental illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other peoples health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
God Bless and Love from Shannon Diana xxx
Here is some numbers to contact if you are expierencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritians- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
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