It’s got to be perfect..
It’s got to be worth it..
As that famous song goes..
(Nan or any other of my family, please don’t read this!)
I don’t want to just lie down and just get laid. I did that when I was battling with my impulsive and intense thoughts. I had shit loads of confidence back when I was impulsive. I was so flirty and so down for anything..
But now, It’s changed. I have no confidence when it comes to sex or even dating if I’m honest. I don’t want to just lie down and get laid.. That just doesn’t give me any excitement anymore. I want to be old fashion and go on a date then I want to be explored. I mean.. oh this is going to sound so so cheesy. I want to be kissed all over and explored..
Dating back when I was having impulsive episodes.. Well, it was dangerous.. My ex boyfriend.. If you can call him that. He mentally destroyed me. We won’t give him that time on my blog.
But while battling an invisible illness.
Dating is possible while battling any invisible illness but you have some hurdles to jump over while battling an invisible illness. You have the social side then you have the physical side.
Social evenings out for example..
My anxiety would have pups if I was to think of anything social.
My leg starts shaking for no reason.
It’s not my fault. I’m getting better slowly at it.
But who knows?
I will continue this post.. This is a little cliff hanger 😉
Love Shannon Diana xx
Mental illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other people’s health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
Here is some numbers to contact if you are expierencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritians- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
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