How are you feeling? I hope you are all okay.
Today I’m back with another daily thought log. Today daily log is somewhat positive.
Last week one was pretty hard-hitting but I wanted to show everyone and raise awareness for BPD and other mental illnesses.
If you want to read it, it is here: 13/09/2018
It does involve some triggering content. So, if you are in a vunerable position please do not look at that post..
So, let’s get started..
I went on a little day trip to Brean. My anxiety was wild but I wanted to fight it and actually spend a day out and feel like I’ve accomplished something. I had my medication. I had to fight really hard to get out of the house but I did get out of the house. I had to battle the constant thoughts of being overwhelmed and anger to someone who told me I looked like a dog but I’m happily able to say I didn’t let my thoughts or them people get me down.
Brean wasn’t busy which was a bonus to my anxiety. But only down point.. There was not a lot there to look at. Only amusement parks etc. I went in there and won like 3 things. But I didn’t want to stay in there as my impulsive thought would get more intense and I’d probably would have spent all my cash what I brought with me.
About 3ish my head started to play up. I felt like I was hit with brain fog and all of a sudden, I was knackered.
We left about half 4 and got back to Aldridge about 8pm.
Paranoid thoughts started coming in when I went to the local shop and the two people who were abusive towards me followed me into the shop and followed all the way round and started on me again.
Then I went home..
I sat in my bed at 9:30pm and I just fell asleep..
Until next time..
Love from Shannon Diana xx
Mental illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other people’s health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
Here is some numbers to contact if you are expierencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritians- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
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