So.. Hello Everyone!
I wanted to tell my new readers a bit about me.
I have been battling a long fight since I was 9/10. I’ve been battling with my mental health. It just has to be invisible, doesn’t it? Just my luck… Well, I’ll let you into the knowledge of my little ugly sisters.
Depression and Social Anxiety Disorder.
I have suspected Bipolar Disorder & Borderline Personality Disorder. (It takes a while to diagnose these illnesses. As the symptoms are very alike!)
I take 2 antidepressants in the morning called Paroxetine. My dosage is 40mg. It might be upped in the future or it might even be changed. I first got prescribed at the age of 19, but I had different ones as they wouldn’t work with my head and that’s okay.
I also take an Anti-Psychotic which is called Quetiapine. I take them twice a day. My dosage is 50mg. I got prescribed them last week.
Let’s talk about the dreaded side effects..
- Sleep Problems – I couldn’t sleep at all when I got first prescribed on Paroxetine.
- Sweating – This was the worst thing to happen to me as I was sweating like I was in an oven.
- A headache- I had some headaches for the first couples of days when I started taking Paroxetine, but now they’ve gone.
- Nausea- I use to get some type of nausea every time I took them and when I ate food.
- Heartburn I still sometimes have the dreaded heartburn daily after taking my tablets.
- Lightheadedness- I sometimes still get this, every time I stand up.
- A headache- First couple of days when I started taking Quetiapine, I had some headaches.
- Tiredness The tiredness is reaaaaal!
- Dry mouth I never use to have a dry mouth until I started taking Quetiapine. But, It’s not the end of the world.
Sometimes I get the odd comment, you shouldn’t be taking medication. It will change your mind.
That’s complete BS. I take it because I need it or I wouldn’t be here right now If I’m honest.
Medication shouldn’t be shamed when it helps and helps you to battle the demons when all your mind wants is to die. Medication doesn’t make you weak. Medication doesn’t fix the problem but it helps while you’re fixing them yourself.
I took medication for my heart when I was a toddler, no one said anything. But it’s different to people if I take medication for a mental illness. It’s not acceptable to take medication for your mind but it’s acceptable to take medication for physical illnesses.
You wouldn’t tell someone with a life-limiting illness to stop taking their medication and just go out for a walk, would you?
So, why would you tell someone who is suffering in silence to just snap out of it.
Let me tell you a little something..
Mental Illnesses are life limiting.
Have you ever tried to get out of bed when you mentally feel like there’s a ten stone on your chest? Have you ever missed daily things you use to do? But now, you find it hard to get out of the front door.
Mental illnesses can be deadly if it’s not treated or recognised in the right time!
I’m Shannon Diana, I’m 21 years old and I take medication to help with my mind while I’m trying to fix myself. I’m not ashamed.
Yeah, my mind sometimes doesn’t want to play nice. The demons are nasty as anything when I am having a bad day.. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. But I still have a beating heart and I am still human. I still have feelings just like you. I’m just like you if I’m honest. Just because my heart is kind and my mind isn’t kind at times. It doesn’t give you the right to judge me or anyone who is battling an illness, mentally or physically.
Till next time..
Love From Shannon Diana xx
It is perfectly okay to admit when you’re not okay.
Mental illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other peoples health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
Here is some numbers to contact if you are expierencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritians- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
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