Dear brain & body, we need a chat.

Dear Brain & Body, 

We need a chat.

Well, a little rant is needed or I will go insane if I keep it inside my head any longer. 

This isn’t for sympathy either. I just wanted to rant. 

I’m fed up of your games and tricks. 5 weeks ago, my brain had a mini nervous breakdown. Now, I’m on medication what’s working with my brain hopefully and it has stabilized my moods. 

And,

Now it feels like my body is trying to play up. I’ve eaten the right foods and I do exercise. I do the things the doctors suggest you do and you are still being a pain in the neck! (Literally)

I’m 21 but I feel like a 90-year-old right now.

How is that fair? 

YOU ROBBED MY MENTAL WELLNESS. NOW IT FEELS LIKE YOU’RE ROBBING MY PHYSICAL WELLNESS! 

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I was such a healthy child. I had no issues. I had a hole in my heart when I was 2 but now, I feel older than 21. I do everything that’s been said. Exercise & Diet. I just want a break from illnesses.

I’m starting to lose the sensation in my legs and the bottom of my back at times now..  I have no idea what that means. I don’t want to go to the hospital as that’s one of my triggers to my social anxiety and I don’t want to be a burden. It’s starting to worry me. The tiredness after 9 hours sleep. The joint pain. The agony it causes to simply get out of bed. I’ve had this pain and tiredness for 6 months. I blamed it on the mental illnesses as I was in relapse and my moods were erratic but now, it feels like it’s to do with my physical health. 

 

Let’s hope the doctors on Thursday will be a step forward and see what’s actually going inside my body. 

I’m scared. 

Really scared. 

Yours,

Shannon Diana x

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It is perfectly okay to admit when you’re not okay.

 Mental or physical illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am

I fight for my health and for other peoples health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors! 

If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone. 

I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much. 

Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you. 

You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all. 

You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day.  You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.

Here are some numbers to contact if you are experiencing a mental health crisis: 

Samaritans- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week: 

Call this number – 116 123 

Email address is Jo@samaritans.org 

Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men!  5pm to midnight every day.

Call this number: 0800 58 58 58 

Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat

Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm. 

Phone number: 0800 068 41 41 

Text Number: 07786 209697

Email: Pat@papyrus-uk.org

Childline- For children and young people under 19. 

Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill) 

The Silver Line- For older people 

Call: 0800 4 70 80 90 

In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433

In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14

In other countries- Visit ISAP OR Suicide.org to find a helpline in your country. 

Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK: 

  1. Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment. 
  2. Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need. 
  3. Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one. 

If you would like to contact me for PR or any collaborations or even support if you are going through a bad time. Please follow my social media accounts and email me.

Instagram- @Shannondianaxx  

Twitter- @SDianaax 

Email- ShannonDianax@outlook.com

Facebook Page- Mental Health & My Life

6 thoughts on “Dear brain & body, we need a chat.

  1. Emily says:

    Hey.
    I hope all is well. Maybe you should step back and take some time off. I have arthritis I know what pain is like everyday. It starts of gradual and doesn’t just come on. So hopefully you don’t have that fingers crossed ay!😊 your blog is awesome, but I belive in the quote I once read in a book “it’s ok not to be ok, but it’s not ok to stay that way”
    Be greatful for what you have, some people reading your blog maybe alot worse off than you.
    Hey and girl, when are you going to post makeup tutorials, you totally should as those eyeshadow palletes arent cheap hun. GET AT IT GIRLY!💄💎

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