Dear Brain & Body,
We need a chat.
Well, a little rant is needed or I will go insane if I keep it inside my head any longer.
This isn’t for sympathy either. I just wanted to rant.
I’m fed up of your games and tricks. 5 weeks ago, my brain had a mini nervous breakdown. Now, I’m on medication what’s working with my brain hopefully and it has stabilized my moods.
Now it feels like my body is trying to play up. I’ve eaten the right foods and I do exercise. I do the things the doctors suggest you do and you are still being a pain in the neck! (Literally)
I’m 21 but I feel like a 90-year-old right now.
How is that fair?
YOU ROBBED MY MENTAL WELLNESS. NOW IT FEELS LIKE YOU’RE ROBBING MY PHYSICAL WELLNESS!
I’m starting to lose the sensation in my legs and the bottom of my back at times now.. I have no idea what that means. I don’t want to go to the hospital as that’s one of my triggers to my social anxiety and I don’t want to be a burden. It’s starting to worry me. The tiredness after 9 hours sleep. The joint pain. The agony it causes to simply get out of bed. I’ve had this pain and tiredness for 6 months. I blamed it on the mental illnesses as I was in relapse and my moods were erratic but now, it feels like it’s to do with my physical health.
Let’s hope the doctors on Thursday will be a step forward and see what’s actually going inside my body.
Shannon Diana x
It is perfectly okay to admit when you’re not okay.
Mental or physical illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other peoples health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
Here are some numbers to contact if you are experiencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritans- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
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