Hello everyone. How are you today? I hope you are all okay and if you aren’t feeling ok. Just remember that’s it ok not to be ok and I hope you can get the right support you need and if you want to talk please remember that I’m here and the correct charities are here to support you.
Hypomania and mania are periods of over-active and excited behaviour that have a significant impact on your day-to-day life.
- Hypomania is a milder version of mania that lasts for a short period (a few days)
- Mania is a more severe form that lasts for a longer period (a week or more)
Some people find hypomania and mania enjoyable, whereas for other people it is a very uncomfortable, distressing and unpleasant experience. – Mind Charity
(You can also experience impulsive spending if you have Borderline Personality Disorder or any mental illness!)
Let’s start with this blog post! Today I will be writing some of my personal tips on having a manic episode and not to impulsive spend. Some personal experiences what I’ve done in the past and what I do now in the present when I am having a manic episode.
I want to talk about those bad impulsive behaviours and raise awareness about them so people know if someone they know or love is experiencing any type of mental health problem. Yeah, I admit I did some dangerous things when I was manic but I was ill and now I know correct coping mechanisms when I’m having another manic episode in the future. So, I’m going to talk about the impulsive spending side first.
When I have a manic episode, my mind doesn’t give me chance to think through some of the things what my mind tells me to do. Because my mood is that high when I’m manic, I like to feel the high feeling and the feeling of excitement before I had the correct medication to battle my hypomania and stable my moods, I used to do bad impulsive behaviours what now I realise that it wasn’t the right behaviours and it was very dangerous because, at any moment of my manic episode, I felt a massive drop in my mood which was a low depressive feeling and that caused me more pain to my well-being as I was trying to fill voids and try to feel that excited feeling again. But it wasn’t me in my right stable mind, it was because I was ill and I needed support to help me to stabilize my moods and that’s ok to get help. I’m not ashamed to say I was ill.
Before I got the correct support what I needed and before I spoke out about my own mental health issues when I was having a manic episode. I spent money like no tomorrow when I was manic. I used it as a void to hide my feelings and give me that excitement feeling and my mind told myself if I ordered loads of “presents” for myself. I’d feel the excitement and it would fill my void. But in reality, it was a bad coping mechanism and I caused myself a load more stress due to debt and it added about another 100 problems when I always got RED letters saying you owe certain amounts of money to companies which caused me to be more isolated as I had no money because I spent it all on stupid things what I thought I needed at the time when in reality I don’t think I needed 55 eyeshadow palettes when I only have 2 pairs of eyes.
Luckily enough my grandma caught on I was spending impulsively and I wasn’t in my stable mind and she calmly sat me down while I was placing another beauty bay order luckily she took my card off me before I made that order and now she helps me when I’m having a manic episode any time. I sorted my debts out. I am slowly getting better. I want to help others with being manic and not going down the route I did when I was very poorly.
So here are my tips. I hope I can help at least 1 person with this.
- I trust my nan with my bank card now. She let’s me have it when I need to pay bills and when I need to withdraw some money for living costs etc. – You could trust someone who you love to keep your bank card if you are feeling manic.
- I withdraw money for each week and give myself a daily amount. To be fair, I’m normally left with some money as I don’t impulsively spend when I’m having a depressive mood or when I feel stable. – You could withdraw money for each week and give yourself a daily amount of money and lock the rest of the money for the week up!
- I keep a diary on my notes on the phone of my current bills and what I have left and I break it up to little sections of living like £50 a month for treats and I normally save the money what I don’t spend for the next month.
- I have apps and subscriptions emails I always turn my notifications off because that’s my biggest trigger when I see something 75% off and when I’m manic, my mind always thinks it’s a great idea and I always spend over and when I’m feeling stable I feel so guilty and end up punishing myself. If I really want something, I’d go on the website and have a look first.
- I now tend to give myself a 2 day thinking now. Do I really need it? If it stays in my mind longer than 2 days then yeah I do need it. If it doesn’t then I obviously don’t need it.
- I am so happy banks are starting to bring this out. I have a pin sensory machine from Barclays and the mobile app. I can temporarily freeze my bank card which is epic if I do have my bank card and say I was having a shopping spree with my friends. I wouldn’t go over the limit with spending.
- I avoid all triggers such as going out to pubs or going on weekly shopping sprees. I don’t need to do that sort of thing when I had enough stuff of mine and I want to use that up before buying anything up.
- While I’m in a stable mood, I try to ring my bank and tell them my situation and what payments need to go through and what payments what don’t need too. They tend to be supportive of you.
- I tend to put all my impulsive energy in my blog and create content for you guys. That kills the thought of spending lots. My blog gives me a high feeling when I’m manic. Find a hobby what is suitable for you and enjoy it!
- Make sure you take your medication if you are prescribed it. Trust me, I’m on antipsychotics at first I was scared of being judged about being on antipsychotics but now, I think it’s for my health and I need it. So, I’m going to take it.
Those are some of my tips I use. Yeah, I still have the occasional impulsive spend when I’m manic but it’s not like before. Don’t punish yourself. It’s not your fault. You need all the support you can get. I am feeling stable a bit now but that’s when my mind tries to encourage me I don’t need my medication anymore and that’s when I have the massive drop in my mood which reminds me that I need my medication!
Till next time folks.
I love you.
Shannon Diana xx
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If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
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Here is some numbers to contact if you are expierencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritians- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
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