Hello Beautiful! How are you today? I hope you are all okay and if you aren’t feeling ok. Just remember that’s it ok not to be ok and I hope you can get the right support you need and if you want to talk please remember that I’m here and the correct charities are here to support you!
It’s the start of Blogmas!
HAPPY 1ST OF DECEMBER!
As you saw my previous post about what I do when I’m sad and in a depressive episode.If you haven’t read it yet it is here – What I do when I’m sad.
Anyway, I want to do this post as I want to be open about my mental health so I can raise awareness for mental illnesses and help other people.
So back before I was prescribed antipsychotics what are called quetiapine. My manic episodes were frequently and I was super elevated. I was unwell at that stage. I was suddenly dropping from manic to depressive 3 times a day. I was putting myself in dangerous situations. I was drinking and abusing drugs to cover up on how I felt at that time and spending impulsivity on stuff I didn’t need and want.
Most people think if you get prescribed medication… You’re instantly cured. That’s BS.
I still get manic episodes. But they aren’t frequently now.
I want you to understand and know when I’m manic. I’m not crazy. I’m just super elevated but it will pass soon.
So, this is what I do when I’m experiencing a manic episode.
- I get creativity thoughts what go into my blog or my youtube channel which can be awesome but sometimes I put too much stuff on to me and it tumbles down on me which can be bad for me but I understand when I’m manic that’s okay and I need to talk to my nan about it and only do things what I’m comfortable with.
- I’m very talkative in person and online. But I can over talk if you get me? I talk rapidly fast when no one can understand but I also answer my messages fast and I want to be connected with my friends 24/7.
- I don’t sleep that much. I mentally and physically can’t. It feels like my head or body won’t switch off.
- I get overconfident.
- I visit my family more which is a bonus.
- I’m constantly switched on. I feel like I have superpowers and that I don’t my medication or sleep or anything. (But I do take my medication because that’s when I need it the most!)
- I talk to my nan on how I’m feeling then.
- I watch youtube videos mostly when I’m manic as it stops me from spending and putting myself in dangerous situations.
It’s not my fault I have manic episodes. It’s not my fault I have depressive episodes.
Always support and be kind to your loved ones as you have no idea what they are going through mentally.
Lots of love..
Shannon Diana xx
Mental illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other people’s health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
Here is some numbers to contact if you are expierencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritians- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
If you would like to contact me for PR or any collaborations or even support if you are going through a bad time. Please follow my social media accounts and email me.
Facebook Page- Mental Health & My Life
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