Hello, the lovely readers of my blog!
I hope you’ve had an amazing christmas with your loved ones! I hope you are all okay and if you aren’t feeling ok. Just remember that’s it ok not to be ok and I hope you can get the right support you need and if you want to talk please remember that I’m here and the correct charities are here to support you!
I know I said I was having a rest. But I missed you all and I missed writing if I’m honest with you. Now, I’m going to be 100% honest with you like I’m always am. But recently.. I’ve been thinking about life and my future.
As it’s how many days until the first of January 2019.. Like four days? I’m not going to do any new years of revolutions. Because does anyone actually keep them? I don’t..
Anyway, I’m wondering off the topic of the conversation aren’t I.. Well anyway I’ve been thinking about my future so much. I want to be able to live an average life while managing my illnesses because I know I can live normally with my mental illnesses. I will just need to avoid triggers what can make my mental health decline and I need to know how to manage my illnesses with the correct support and medication and be able to do the things I want. I need to avoid the things that can make me have another relapse in my recovery but if it happens that’s ok, I can take one day at a time. I know recovery isn’t a straight line but you know what? I recovered before and managed my symptoms before my recent relapse.
I CAN DO THAT AGAIN! I WANT TO GET BETTER!
In the future… I want to work in the mental health profession as let’s be honest. I know what it feels like to be a patient under a mental health trust. To this day. I’m still under it and you know what? That’s ok because at the moment of my life I need the help and support.
But I’ve always wanted to be a nurse since I was a little girl. You know.. Before my illnesses took control. My grandparents always said I’d make a great nurse. I want to be a mental health nurse or a mental health support worker!
Since my illnesses took over my mind and body and when I was able to work. I changed jobs like no tomorrow. But I’ve been told that’s a big red alarm that I was getting ill and I didn’t know at that point.
I’ve also been taking mental health awareness courses online. As I find mental health interesting. But you know what.. When I kick these illnesses to the ground and control them myself which I will. I want to help people who are in crisis. I want to help people who are ill mentally. I want to show people who have trust issues that it’s ok to vent because you know what? I’ve been in that situation and I personally know what you go through in our daily lives because that’s what I’m going through at the moment.
So I’ve kinda made myself a plan. When I’m mentally stable with the doctor’s approval. I want to go to uni and do my mental health nursing degree then I want to be a registered mental health nurse on the NCM (Nursing & Midwifery Council) because I can do this! But I want to make sure I’m ok to do it. Because of last time.. I did an open uni course and I kinda pretended that I was ok with criminology and then I got overstressed and everything went on me and I had a breakdown and you know what? That 100% ok. I failed on that but that is ok because that wasn’t meant to be!
So.. I want to show you my plan I made and I’m impressed.. With help from my grandma and family, I will complete this plan and hopefully, in the late 2019 or start 2020 I will be starting university to do my mental health nursing degree!
2019/2020 goals/contract for Shannon Diana!
1. Get medication sorted with my body & mind. Remember to take my medication what is prescribed & hopefully get therapy and sort my issues out. Remember self-care! Remember to go to all my mental health appointments and talk to the doctors!
2. Sort out my sleep pattern and my eating pattern out. Try to do more exercise and join a gym eventually when I’ve sorted my social anxiety.
3. Remember one day at a time and I will be ok and it’s ok to have bad days and not to go hard on myself. Also, take breaks when I need them.
4. Ask for help if I’m feeling suicidal or severely depressive or manic or lonely. REMEMBER TO TALK AND NOT SHUT YOURSELF OFF THE WORLD.
5. Talk about my feelings and what’s on my mind.
6. Try to build my friendships & relationships up and not let my illnesses take control over them!
7. Finish my courses & apply to university for my degree!
8. Continuing with my blog to document my recovery and document every day of my journey of university and becoming a mental health nurse/support worker!
9. Don’t isolate yourself and start loving yourself.. Don’t get into a relationship just for validation. You are loved and don’t ever forget that.
10. Don’t stay around toxic and negative energy and focus on yourself.
So.. I hope you stick around with me and come on the journey with me!
With lots of love!
Until January 1st 2019.
Shannon Diana xx
Mental illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other people’s health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
Here is some numbers to contact if you are experiencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritans- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
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