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I hope you are all okay and if you aren’t feeling ok. Just remember that’s it ok not to be ok and I hope you can get the right support you need and if you want to talk please remember that I’m here and the correct charities are here to support you!
If you haven’t seen my recent fitness related blog post. Please check it out, my loves!
Today blog post is all about anxieties about the gym!
When I was battling a manic episode due to my illnesses, every few months, say oh I need to join the gym and lose so much weight and buy a ton of gym clothes & books about weight lost and go every single day for weeks and take selfies to show people that I was at the gym then suddenly is stopped when I got depressive and when my moods was stable.
I wasted a lot of my money because I would of brought gym memberships and I’d go for weeks then it would be stopped and I was paying for not going and gym memberships don’t come cheap! Let me tell you that!
As you all know I am riddled with Anxiety from top to bottom.. I don’t need no Gucci jackets, when you have anxiety every single day of your life. Sweaty palms & rosey cheeks problems 101.
So it’s 2019. I am still riddled with anxiety. It’s being a right little sod at the moment. So the gym is off the cards until I feel comfortable about working out in a gym with people staring at you!
I can still get fit at home and still go for a run when I feel like it. Home workouts doesn’t mean you’re an failure. Hell no! It means you’re still trying your hardest and still beating those demons one step of a day!
But one day I will get back to the gym. I just need to find the right one where I feel comfortable about working out with an audience.
I want you all on this journey with me as I want to be able do fitness without the obsession!
I need to get myself some wireless headphones as have you tried running with wired ones? Not a good combo, let me just tell you that.
Till next time!
With lots of love!
Shannon Diana xx
Mental illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other people’s health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
Here is some numbers to contact if you are experiencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritans- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In the US: Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or the National Hopeline Network at 1-800-784-2433
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
If you would like to contact me for PR or any collaborations or even support if you are going through a bad time. Please follow my social media accounts and email me.
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