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I hope you are all okay and if you aren’t feeling ok. Just remember that’s it ok not to be ok and I promise you can get the right support you need if you reach out to someone and if you want to talk please remember that I’m here and the correct charities are here to support you!
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Well. If you would be telling me back 5/6 years ago while I was in the darkest time of my life and start of my recovery that I was going to be an award-winning blogger and that I was going to relapses a few times and still be fighting every single day. Even if she had the worst bad days ever and the fact she now cherishes her good days. I probably wouldn’t believe you at all and would tell you to clear off in a polite manner.
We’ve all been judged in our lives. We aren’t perfect even if sometimes we do think we are pretty damn perfect. We all have a past. We all have our snuggles. Even the happiest person on this earth has probably had a bad day in their life.
I want to let you know about some comments I’ve had in my life.
- You just need to chin up.
- You are too fat for that dress.
- You have so many mood swings just because you have bipolar, grow up.
- You’re a snowflake.
- You would look nicer if you lost a few pounds.
- I bet you’d be a great girlfriend in bed cause you have bipolar.
- God you are a psycho.
- You are so boring because you don’t drink.
I have my flaws and you know what? I’m ok with that! I haven’t got the perfect skin. I have spot scars. I have self harm scars on my wrists and arms and thighs. I get scared when I get introduced to a new male as I’ve been groomed before and I’m scared that I will get hurt again due to messy break ups.
I’m scared if I drink alcohol again that I will relapse into that spiral of despair and hatred towards myself. It’s ok to feel that. It’s okay to feel scared. I have times where I’m scared to speak to new people but I have another times where I am the queen of chatting.
I’m not the perfect size ten but that doesn’t matter because I am that Shannon what has adorable chubby cheeks.
I don’t have that perfect voice but that doesn’t matter because I have that adorable brummy laugh.
I have messy hair at times and I tie it up in a bun because some days I just feel like I can’t move as the anxiety is far too much. But I still fight those days very hard.
Love every single part of my body
Top to the bottom
I’m not a supermodel from a magazine
I’m okay with not being perfect
Cause that’s perfect to me
Anne Marie – Perfect to me
I’m not perfect.
You know what?
That’s perfect to me!
Till next time!
With lots of love!
Shannon Diana xx
Mental illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other people’s health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
Here is some numbers to contact if you are experiencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritans- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
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