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I hope you are all okay and if you aren’t feeling ok. Just remember that’s it ok not to be ok and I promise you can get the right support you need if you reach out to someone and if you want to talk please remember that I’m here and the correct charities are here to support you!
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Hello my loves, Hi, how are ya? No, how are you really?!
There is so many negatives about having bipolar. But you know what?! There are so many positives about having bipolar as well. I like to think about all the positives in this and not the negatives.
But I will write about negatives in the future as I want people to have an understanding of Bipolar disorder.
This is part one.
Also BP is shortened for Bipolar.
Number One – Creativity can be a curse but also a blessing!
Because I have bipolar which is mixed , I’m depressed but also manic at the same time and that is the worst but also best battle of my life. Some of my best ideas are down to BP. Like this blog. I would never of thought I’d be a blogger or even writing. Also, back in 2018. I created my mental health awareness sessions while I was manic which was good but I did far too much which led to My mind and body to shut down which caused me to have a mental health crisis.
As you see, creativity can be a curse but it can be a blessing in small doses.
Number Two – Being high for live without taking alcohol or drugs. (Now, that can be a negative as some reckless decisions can cause trouble and be unsafe. It can be a positive if you are having the correct treatment and support with BP)
When I’m manic, it’s the best but worse feeling ever if you get my drift. I feel so alive but I have racing thoughts and my head constantly tells me I need to do something or complete how many tasks in a set time frame. But, I have the need to experience life. I’m really chatty & confident which can be a blessing as when I’m feeling depressed, I feel low and I rarely talk to anyone.
Number Three– You know true colours of people when you have BP.
This has to be my big one as I’ve lost friends but also gain some amazing friends due to BP. They’ve seen my worst but also have seen my best of my life and they still love and love me for who I am not my BP. I have a small circle of friends but you know what?! I don’t care. I love them all.
Number Four– Being a quick learner.
When I’m experiencing a high episode. I do anything what’s safe to do. I can pick near most anything up. I am a very quick learner, I’ve been told when it has to with physical activities but when it’s numbers or so I’m quick but I have to put my mind to do it as the number kinda overwhelm me.
Number Five– Being enthusiastic.
This has to be my favourite apart from creativity as when I have a hobby, I do my best and won’t give up on it until its up to my standards. I will rave about it all the time. It’s a blessing when it comes to friendships or relationships as I am enthusiastic with them. I give them pep talks and show them so much love and peace.
I hate when someone speaks negative about themselves as I’ve been in that way and I was the worse energy for myself and I was so toxic with my mind and head. I’d never want to go back to that girl in 2017/2018.
I have my own little peace and happiness. I’m starting to love myself and accept myself that yeah I might be different to others the way I think but I am still a human and I still deserve that love and respect. I have bad days but I have some awesome good days.
You aren’t your diagnosis, You are beautiful and you are so loved. I promise you. You define you not your illness.
Till next time!
With lots of love!
Shannon Diana xx
Mental illness isn’t going to get the last laugh. I am.
I fight for my health and for other people’s health every single day in a way most people won’t understand, we aren’t lazy. We are warriors!
If you don’t feel like talking to yet, I’ll always be here and I’ll help out any way I can. You aren’t alone.
I know how it feels to be pushed aside. But listen, you are amazing and I’m proud of you so much.
Just so you know, it’s okay not to be okay you know, even the happiest person in the universe has their bad days. You can get through this dark hole. I believe in you.
You are loved. You are worth the fight. You are more than your illnesses, you can fight this I believe in you. You are flawless. You are fabulous. You aren’t alone. You are amazing and I’m proud of you all.
You can beat these thoughts. I believe in you. I will always be there for you even if it’s on the internet or email or even in person one day. You are loved. You are needed in this world because you are YOU. You are badass for battling mental illness daily. I care about every single one of you. You are more than enough. You don’t need to please anyone else.
Here is some numbers to contact if you are experiencing a mental health crisis:
Samaritans- For everyone! 24 hours, 7 days a week:
Call this number – 116 123
Email address is Jo@samaritans.org
Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – For Men! 5pm to midnight every day.
Call this number: 0800 58 58 58
Webpage chat room if you don’t want to phone the link is: Webpage Chat
Papyrus- For people under 35! Monday to Friday 10am to 10pm. Weekends 2pm to 10pm. Bank Holidays 2pm to 5pm.
Phone number: 0800 068 41 41
Text Number: 07786 209697
Childline- For children and young people under 19.
Call 0800 1111 (Number won’t show up on your phone bill)
The Silver Line- For older people
Call: 0800 4 70 80 90
In Austraila- Call Lifeline Austraila at 13 11 14
Other places you could go or ring in a crisis in UK:
- Call your GP- Ask for an emergency appointment.
- Call 111 – Out of hours- They will help you find the support and help you need.
- Contact your mental health crisis team if you have one.
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